Wednesday Sickness

what I feel right now!




All I want to do right now is to go back to sleep and dream….and wake up in the midst of afternoon sun.

But I’m here in the four-corner of my office, sipping my Milo, hearing the tic-tac of morning rain and soon to battle the paperworks I have!


When I woke up,

I heard baraw’s crow

I remember the place where I was born,

And makes me feel so forlorn.

How I wish in every journey

I can wrapped your laughter

So that ev’rytime I hear baraw’s crow

I will not long for you.



I try my best to translate my poem ” Kamingaw ” in English… =) “baraw” is a rooster, with a red and black feathers.



Sa akun pagbugtaw,

nabatian ko ang pamalo ni baraw,

lupa nga kinatawhan akun nadumduman

kag ako guid ang napung-awan.

daad sa kada pagpanakayun,

maputos ko ang mga kadlaw

para sa kada pagpamalo ni baraw

hindi run ako mamingaw.

baraw crowed early morn

kag si baraw namalo!

“Kamingaw” is a Kinaray-a (a native language spoken by Antiqueños and some part of Iloilo province)  word for homesick/homesickness.

Lazy Day

If I have to choose what will I do today, I will surely say– I wanna go home and stay in bed.

My Thursday syndrome bites me and all I want to do was to stare at my desktop, staring blankly on the report that I will prepare and randomly searching topics on the web that will keep me motivated… And since I haven’t found one to entertain myself, I just want to pour this emotion on my blog.

This week, I feel agitated. I was disturbed by the upcoming presence of someone. I expect this to happen and I prepare myself for this…but the idea of having him here is not still sink in my whole system. I’ve been denial since last year, since that day that “us” have been a viral item. I don’t know what’s within me. I don’t know what hormonal imbalance inside me that keeps on gnawing ev’ry bit of me, that leads to this kind of discomfort. Maybe I’m not mature yet to handle this kind of relationship or I’m just a typical reserved person. (If ever somebody read this who knows me better, for sure, they will rolled their eyes for a violent reaction, lol).

Well, I know I have no choice but to accept and live life more productive and unselfish. All I want is everything must be done accordingly.

Let it be done!


I’m still sleepy and lazy even after posting. =(