Out of nowhere

I don’t know why.. I feel envious today.
I just read an exam result, and I know somebody that passed that exam which I myself tried it but no to avail.
I am always assuring myself that it is not my race, that exam is not mine or I am not for that, so on amd so forth… but human being as I am it still hurts…

Maybe I am not good in acceptance to failures… because I always try to be a victor. I always assume that things run smoothly as I expected,  that every dreams that I want, I get… but I know, I have to fail. I have to be crushed, so I will learn.