I want to go back to sleep in the comfort of my home but as I am in the road waiting to pass this ordeal.. traffic is heavy and my eyelids is about to shutdown.
When you are not happy in the crowd and you coerce yourself smiling and pretending you’re okay.
I regret that I stay longer… I hate it when being friendly makes you less human and fake.
I learned my lesson. Swim to a place where you enjoy the scene not because you’re part of the school of fishes.
Dreams do come true…when you do it! I am on my way to fulfill the first list I listed on my bucketlist. I have been planning and dreaming about this trip since I am young and unemployed but due to circumstances I haven’t get a chance but a promo last April makes me decide and leap wothout even thinkinh the weather conditions in this rainy months. As usual there is some delays and mishaps but I am claiming this will be a sucessful and happy vacation even I have to beat stormy skies.
I am writing this blog 120000 feet above and experiencing turbulence due to cloudy skies and almost zero visibility.
Bless my trip God and bring me to Davao safe and sound.
The most challenging sem is over…and I failed. My EDM sucks. POM is rewarding but i am the weakling and FinMan got the highest score. I dont’t want to expect anything because i know i dont exert any effort to be called successful.
I shorten my leave but end up cancelled.
I put this into writing for me to moved on.
At some point I ask myself
“Tama ba tong napasukan ko?”
I am lazy with my reports, homeworks and even going to school. I end up tinkering my phone or thinking random thoughts and misfortunes that I have. I cried silently in my room and let agony and despair took over.
I self pity.
I lost my old self.
Then at one point, I decided to finish the battle that I started.
“Tatapusin ko ang laban na to!”
I don’t know how or how can I make it but one thing is for sure…I have my God and I will never give up.
Claiming my victory, all for His glory. Sasablay sa 2019!
Am I asking too much
Or it is you that give less?
Am I sensitive that I tried to push you
Or it’s you that pull me down?
Am I the one that have high standards
Or it’s you that prefer mediocrity?
Am I not enough
Or this is enough?
In this freezing cold
And lonely nights,
I wish you’re in my side
Hugging me tight.
But you are there
And I am here,
Nautical miles and knots away
How can I ask, will you stay?
Two different worlds,
Battled for time and words,
Can we make it
Or I tend to forget?
Sigh, loving you is a warfare!
I’ll be losing pieces of me,
To win you back in my arms…again.